Happy New Year!

I recently joined a new "getting thin 2010" weight loss support group. I know that it may be cliche to say that I'm going to lose weight now that this is a new year; and I don't normally believe in "New Years Resolutions" because no one keeps them anyway, right?

However, I was watching a show the other day (oddly enough it was a tattoo show) and there was a lady there who was talking about 13 o'clock. The jist was, we keep saying "I'll do ______ when _____" MY 13 o'clock was most often, "I'll do ____ with my children when I've lost some weight." Well guess what?! My kids aren't waiting to grow up until I've met my 13 o'clock! Exactly the reason that lady called it 13 o'clock was because it NEVER comes. The time is NOW.

My oldest child will only be 11 for 5 more months. She won't sleep in Tupperware, she won't repeat 6th grade--she WILL be going into Middle School this coming fall and I can't stop that process. So, while I will miss holding little babies, I DO want the best for my children and THEY need the best mom I can be. And I think its time that I come to grips with the fact that I can BE more of a mom and be more active with them if I'm smaller.

I used to be in denial because I thought I WASN'T an emotional/stress eater.

Well guess what? I was WRONG!! I am the heaviest right now than I have EVER been. I started gaining again when my dad's business started having struggles and I came in to help. I've been working there for almost 2.5 yrs and that exactly coincides with my most recent gains....at my dad's office is not only my dad, my mom (who also went thru a major illness during this time), my brother who I'm estranged from, an uncle who can't stand to talk to me, and my husband. I'm dealing with stress! Don't we all? But I can't keep telling myself that that is a reason to be overweight! And it is my fault. I can't blame this on anyone else.

SO, here's to Getting Thin in 2010.